Been a long time since I last blogged cause I've been lazy. College has sadly turned me into a lazy sleeper and I don't even study much anymore. That's why I've ended up behind in my engineering and physics class which I now dropped physics and need to start studying for engineering. This has been a bad quarter in money, classes, relationship, and home which caused me hella worrying and stress. I really need to start prioritizing my life but this class schedule I have right now is sleeping late and waking up late for classes. Luckily, I registered for early classes next quarter and hopefully I'll be able to change my lifestyle for the better right now. I'm very poor right now too with losing financial aid grants cause of my GPA and units I have. Because AP units count towards UC credits, I'm a sophomore and so I quality for $1300, but I lose the $750 for freshmen. I can't get the $1300 because I need 3.0 GPA and have instead 2.66. This quarter will probably drop my GPA even lower, so I'm hoping to make it up in spring and summer at Davis. I'm waiting until the class schedule for Davis comes out so I can decide whether to take it first or second summer session. If I take it at the second session, I'll probably have to deal with Chris Mak which I think could be a disaster since he HATES me period. But if he knew how I lived, I wouldn't really do anything at all unless he gets pissed off at that too. I'll let him do whatever he wants to do to me cause I know he needs to release that anger and I might as well help him let out that steam. It partly my fault for it so I don't really wanna to see him grow more into a grumpy man like the old guy in UP! Besides that Vivian would be there which I feel she doesn't want me around cause she's afraid that she'll get tired of me. I don't want that to happen either but I'll probably spend my time either on the laptop, tv, studying, or cooking! Most of the time when I hang out with O-High people, we end up cooking or baking something. The thanksgiving dinner we had in SD made me want to cook more since we made HELLA food and ended up eating it for several days. I really want to bake cakes, cookies, or something just cause it's fun and delicious. It also gives me the feeling of love and warmth which I actually miss since I'm far away from Vivian. I miss her alot but baking relieves the time passing by until spring break. Back to home, I found out my dad's car's transmission is broken and I believe I broke it from driving during winter break somehow. It's gonna cost $6K to fix the car but we don't even have the money to fix it so I'll probably have to work alot to help pay to fix the car. Besides that, I occasionally have to deal with the bills that go home cause Wayland doesn't know how to deal with them so I end up making customer service calls to complain and etc. My mom calls me alot about the bills and I just do it because I know how hard my mom works and I don't want to stress her out even more to deal with the problems. Wayland has his share of responsibilities since I left home and I don't think he even wants to deal with any of it. Home is probably gonna be a disaster when I go back considering how much I'm needed which makes me sort of regret not going to Davis instead. I've giving my dreams on transferring though because I'm failing and I've started to like UCSD very much. Just need a car and I'll be able to do anything around here. LA's like 3-5 hours away so I can always visit family there or Vivian. There's alot to explore that I haven't bothered yet and I've started to meet much more people this quarter for fun. I plan to join a club next quarter but I'll have to really prioritize if I want a job also. I'm going to make the best of spring quarter no matter what. It's supposed to be the funnest and I don't plan to waste any time. ;]
Going back to Oakland this weekend made me miss Oakland alot now. But not the cold weather! I was freezing my ass off most of the time. Came back to the Oakland airport with my mom and brother arguing about why it took me so long to get my bag from the baggage claim. Right after I got back home, I started working on my programming homework that was due midnight and I barely finished by then. Gossiped with Wayland most of the night surprisingly since I couldn't go online ( the internet at home was the speed of dial-up with DSL WTF?). That jackass had to mention about the scary ghost experiences he had since I've been out of the house, so I ended up afraid of going out the room and slept in his room. The next day I woke up at 7am for wonton noodles my mom made and stayed awake waiting for Wayland to wake up so he could tell me where the car keys were. I drove and picked up Vicki to go to a Northface outlet in Berkeley. Everything was so expensive still even though it was an outlet. Vicki bought a backpack cause she needed a waterproof one and then we went to Target. We didn't buy much from Target and then we headed towards Berkeley to visit Karen. Vicki thought her dorm was on the second or third floor but it was fail so we took the elevator to the 5th floor. We still didn't find it until we walked up to the 6th floor and found it. We hung out in Karen's room deciding what to do and decided to go to Vien Hoang along with Wendy Wu in Richmond. After we finished eating, we went exploring through Ranch 99 and then decided to go to Korean market! Wayland called me though and told me to pick him up cause of drama with his ex and so I drove to Lincoln to pick him up but we got some milk tea from Quickly and Sweetheart before heading to Korean market. Vicki bought hella snacks for Vivian when she goes back to Davis but it was hella cheap like $7 total? Afterwards, I drove Wayland, Karen, and Vicki back home and Wendy back to CAL. I hung out with Wendy and Ona for a while waiting for later at night where we decided to go to the AAA boomers event at like 11. Ona and I played pool but I kept losing by default cause I kept hitting the Q ball in a hole. I was on the phone with my mom trying to convince her to let me drive late at night to the boomers event but it was fail so I told her I'd call her later. Then I watched the last few minutes of the CAL vs. Stanford game and CAL won with that interception! Wendy and Ona were going crazy and injured themselves though haha. I met up with Anne and Nancy afterwards and we ate some Korean food and I came up with an excuse to my mom that I'd be staying at Berkeley overnight so I could drive to boomers later. While eating with Nancy and Anne, Anne got some really spicy dish so she couldn't talk while she was on the phone with Chris and Nancy answered for her instead. I felt really fat after eating so much all day and then I explained to Anne and Nancy why I ended up in the hospital which was really weird to explain. Afterwards, I went to get money from the ATM and we then went to Anne's dorm. It was the first time I've been to her dorm but her wall was hella decorated. When it was 9:40, I headed back to the car so I could drive back to pick up Karen and Vicki for boomers. Late night boomers was fun, but I was freezing alot from playing go-karts. On the last go-kart round, I was in a double with Vicki and I decided to swerve side to side for fun getting whiplashes while Tim tried and fail to pass me with a bunch of go-karts backed up behind us. Laser tag was extremely crazy but I think I was overdoing to running around too much and injuring a few people (sorry Wendy)! It was the first time I actually played an arcade DDR i think too and we decided to go take pictures for fun on the minigolf course. Once we were done taking pictures, we left at around 3am where the freeway was almost dead. I was debating in my head whether to drive 100mph just for fun, but i decided against it because I was really tired. We went to Jack-In-the-Box so I got a hamburger and curly fries to eat. Drove Karen and Vicki back home and then drove back to Berkeley with Wendy and dropped her off while I went to sleepover at Tim's dorm for the night. I woke up at around 10-11ish and drove back home without waking up Tim. Ate some dimsum with my mom and brother which I haven't had in a long time. Then I went home, took a nap, and drove Julia and Karen to CAL where we hung out in Karen's dorm for the night while everyone else was studying or busy. We went to Yogurtland and Blondies
I gave up on continuing this so you can imagine what happens next ;]
This weekend finally settled what I've questioned myself for the past month. I'm back with Vivian again after staying over the weekend with her at UCLA. Most people I've talked to before repeatedly told me not to do it since I deserved better, but I think staying in a suite full of guys at UCSD made me want to start something again. We talked alot over the weekend about what went wrong before and hopefully this time in our relationship, we won't make the same mistakes as last time. It still bugs me that I am sort of at fault with the Janan-Edward prom fiasco relationships but high school dramas are old and its college now. Even though we're 2-3 hours away, I haven't felt far from her because of the constant texting, chatting, webcamming, and the phone calls. The one thing me and Vivian don't want though is having everyone know that we're together again.
Besides that, I went to the CAL vs UCLA football game on Saturday where I got a free hat and towel but it was hella hot for 4 hours of UCLA losing their home game. Took a shower and a nap right afterwards and met up with Anne and Susan late at night helping them get to Cherry's dorm to sleepover for the night. Cherry was asleep the whole time so we couldn't contact her for a while until she woke up. So we went to Bruin Cafe first and met up with Randy. Randy said Anne looked like a "valley girl" when he saw her which I thought was really funny. When we were going up to Cherry's dorm, Anne got teased at alot by the guys checking IDs to enter the dorms cause she showed her CAL ID when UCLA lost in the football game. After going up, we chatted for a while in Cherry's dorm and then we left.
Next day, Vivian had to go hang out with Hui so I went to eat with Anne and Susan at Covel Dining Hall. I felt really fat from eating that time but Anne and Susan ate alot too. We saw Fanny and others while eating for like an hour and then went to Patrick's dorm after we finished eating. Patrick's roommate Allen probably got annoyed with Anne messing with him alot but we left when Cherry came and we decided to go to her dorm lounge to study. I gave up studying after reading 2 sections in physics so I did nothing productive for an hour. Vivian came up after hanging out with Hui and we all went down to wait for Fanny and walked to Yamato's at Westwood to eat sushi. After sushi we went to a dessert place that I forgot what it was called and then walked back up to the dorms. Patrick kept singing the Shots song by LMFAO and it actually made me crave to drink some shots. Jackass. After we got up to the dorms, I went with Vivian to pack up my stuff to leave while Anne and Susan went to Cherry's dorm to move their stuff to Alan's dorm for the night so they could leave at 4:00AM next morning. I moved my stuff to the car ready to leave but my cousin wanted to pick up her friend at Santa Monica so it gave me a 10 minute window to stay. I went to help Anne and Susan move their stuff to Alan's dorm and later we all went our separate ways. Me and Vivian went to get some hot chocolate at Bruin Cafe and I soon left UCLA going to my uncle's house and took Amtrak back to UCSD the next day.
Aside from the weekend, the past month hasn't been a stressful month yet I know I'm falling behind in everything since I'm hella lazy to study. I'm especially falling behind in my CAT (English) class because the TA wants us to do hella stuff. Physics isn't really hard but I have trouble remembering the concepts. I think I'd do better in chemistry than physics actually which made me think if I should do something biology/chemistry related instead. My engineering classes aren't hard but it's taking a while for me to understand and comprehend all the stuff about computers and programming that I haven't used for years. Spending wise, I finally got my netbook which is the most useful thing I've bought along with a bunch of other stuff that I didn't really need but helped me be a little more lazy. I need to do laundry this week since I'm running out of boxers ( I really need to go shopping for boxers -_-" ) I've also been sleeping really late but I've become a morning person waking up early for no damn reason at all. I'm going to hate the next few weeks of classes but hopefully I make it through the craziness that happens in my suite and keeps me unfocused. I have an obsession now to keep my stuff organized and keeping boxes because I don't want to become messy like I do at home and I want to be able to mail stuff when I don't want to buy boxes. My plans for going back to Oakland for Vicki's birthday has moved down a week since she'll be in Stanford playing tennis, so I'll come a week later which is the week before Thanksgiving. I actually don't want to go home during Thanksgiving and instead stay in SoCal. I don't really miss home yet, just friends and food. The food at UCSD isn't great ( or it's just pathetic ) except a few places where its decent to good quality. I'm going to cook some rice with chinese sausages one day cause I'm sick of the food here. I haven't finished many things I planned to set out and finish the past month so I'm hoping that I'll start on things for the next month. That's all I can say for now so wait for the next blog!
Its been a couple weeks since I've blogged. Alot has changed since I've gone down to San Diego. My suite is very active and parties alot, drinks, and many other exploits. But I'm not really into the "man culture" so i pretty much can't relate to them. The types of people I'be encountered lately has been either South Bay (San Jose), SoCal, or white people. I haven't really clicked with anybody here yet but it'll take some time to get used. I really miss Oakland right now and sort of regret not having gone to Davis. But it's too late and now I'm here taking classes that I can survive but I have no idea what's going on right now. I'm procrastinating reading physics right now because I haven't ranted a little for a while. I have no idea what's going on with my engineering classes but I understand what's going on. Physics, I have no idea anything because I forgot half of it so I need to refresh my memory. So glad that I brought some of my math stuff from Laney so I could do that. My english class is somewhat like a social science course too. It seriously reminds me of Mr. Danning's World History class which I think I'll have to refer to whenever I write a damn essay again. Lately, it's been going to Cafe V to eat dinner cause everywhere is I think tastes like crap even though its on the other side of campus. I think I'm going to be hanging out with Oak-High people especially Nancy Wu until I find people that I clique with. Socially, I'm not really interested in staying in San Diego but I can survive. I still wanna transfer to Berkeley or LA if I especially Berkeley. I actually miss being in Berkeley. I haven't checked out any girls here much although some of them are cute or hot. As for frats and other stuff, I don't plan to do any of it but maybe Circle K. I'm going to LA on October 16-18 weekend and probably gonna drop by UCLA too. UCLA's really nice but I'm sort of ehh about it wanting to transfer there. November 13-16 I'm going back to Oakland and gonna visit Berkeley and maybe Davis depending on where's Vicki gonna be for her birthday. It's cheaper than going on Thanksgiving and so I'm going to stay in San Diego during Thanksgiving. Besides that, I think I've started to like Vivian again. I've probably texted with her from morning til midnight or later and changed my texting plan because of it. It probably wouldn't have happened if I didn't visit UCLA on the first weekend but I'm glad for now that it did. Last things on my mind right now, I've finally reorganized in my dorm room and it's going to be as clean as it gets. I'd like some friendly visits from time to time here since I miss friends and Oakland (especially food! bring me good food when you come!). I'm not that broke for now but will be by this quarter or year end and have lots of dining dollars to use since I'm underspending so I'm not gonna go hungry here. I'm going to decorate my wall with pictures soon when I have the time this quarter so it won't be the blank white ugly wall that it is now. So come visit and you'll see it finished =D
